Feeling guilty over buying food…

On the first day of the month I get less than $450 to cover my “cash needs” for the month, including bills, laundry, clothes, anything you may think you need money for. My food stamps come on the 8th. 

I am feeling guilty over thinking about spending 20 of that money on some chips, hummus, etc because it’s something that Aedric and I both like, but that’s a lot of loads of laundry, too.

But… I’m tired of it. I’m tired of feeling guilty and fearful and like I should be embarrassed that I need help right now. No one should have to feel bad buying food for their family, or trying to pay the bills. So I’m not. I’m going to go to Natural Grocer’s and get some yummy organic food. I’m going to get something to nourish my soul as well as my body. 

The value of a person is not connected to their alleged monetary value. I feel very strongly about this, too strongly to be able to word things to my satisfaction right now, so I will leave it as is while I go to the store.


~ by araelysia on June 1, 2014.

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